I started the week being completely worn out, exhausted and stressed. Here I am at the mid-way point and I’m feeling none of that. Not that anything has been taken off my table. In fact, I have a to-do list for tonight. But somehow I’ve managed to lesson the clutter. Turn down the noise.

I’ve started drinking water instead of soda. Two things I notice right away. First, I yawn a lot less during the day. How is that possible? Just last week, I would be yawning constantly. No matter the time of day. In meetings I was yawning. At people’s desk I was yawning. It felt like the only solution was to go home, where I would stop yawning. But this week I have yawned only once. Once people! That is like unheard of for me. Second, I’m more thirsty! How does that happen? How can I be even more thirsty by drinking water? I swear I go through four cups a day right now. Where as before a can of soda lasted me all day. As I type this my mouth feels like the desert, so I’m going to get a glass of water.

Okay back. The house is clean. I believe Jen worked hard to pick up. So now when I get home, I immediately feel at ease. Comfortable. Not anxious that I need to clean. Or frustrated that the house is always a mess. Cleaning the place was probably the best gift Jen could have given me because it talked me down from frustration level 11. Now I’m calm. I get home and it’s a place I can rest. I still want to wash all the towels though…

Then there is GA work and a proposal and a few other things I have to do. I’m working on them little by little. I should work harder, faster…but I can’t. If I do, I’ll only stress myself out. And right now, I can’t afford stress.

So I’ll enjoy this wave of calmness. This weekend I’m thinking about getting my hair cut. That will create another sense of newness. Or letting go. Otherwise… I’m going to relax and enjoy this. Cause who knows how long this calm will last.

Thursday, February 9th, 2012, 9:00 am   |   Geek Wifey  |  RSS feed |  Respond  |  Trackback