Interesting week this week. Work was tough, but made it through and ended with a great round of fixes. Things may be a bit off for the next week at work since they are working on the next release and I’m sitting there with bugs and CRs for the current release. But we’ll see. Hopefully, I’ll work with my boss to work on something that continues to challenge me. I really do love where I work, the team I work with and what my job is.
Then there is the wedding planning. RSVPs are coming in but very slowly. This gives me some small amount of panic because if we don’t have a persons rsvp/meal selection, they won’t have food. Even if they decide to come unannounced. There is no extra. I’m not sure how to stress that to people and still be nice about it.
In other wedding news, we got an astronomical quote from our florist. Sadly, I had to chop away at the decoration ideas I had in my head. Gone are the flower balls, reduced are the bridesmaid flowers, the centerpieces will have to be neutered. I’m not sure why this bothers me so. I’m not sure if people care that much about flowers at a wedding, but I guess it’s an overall look. But I know I can’t make us spend so much on flowers. It’s just silly. Hopefully our guests will understand.
Weekend wedding plans involve looking at linens (which are also probably too expensive for me to rent) and printing a few more invitations.
It’s starting to hit me how close the wedding is. The other day I thought of it in terms of how many paychecks are left before the wedding and that depressed me. It’s really difficult to pay for a wedding, and Matt has taken on most of that burden. Unfortunately. I will probably make payments or make it up to him somehow, but it’s frustrating. In terms of time left, it’s stressful that everything has to be done in a month! What am I leaving out? What am I forgetting? Will people even come?
Next in my life is GamingAngels. I’ve set up a couple of business relationships this week that I’m proud of. Our contest with Geek Chic Cosmetics was well received. I have set us up to be a sponsor of a party at SDCC and a media partner of a women and games event. Our PR and CM angels are taking off in their positions and I LOVE the extra help. Our whole staff has been amazing these past couple of weeks. I hope we can keep the momentum going. I’ll be at SDCC next week, but won’t have as many interviews as last year. I guess that’s a good thing, because last year I couldn’t even enjoy SDCC. But it’s a bad thing because that means it will be sooooo crowded that in the end, it might just suck. I also fully believe they let in too many people as press. Because every press conference is warning of being overcrowded and too full. Unless SDCC changes or moves, I believe this will be my last one. It’s just not worth all the frustration. It used to be my favorite con in the world and now I just dread it.
A weird thing happened this week, someone wrote me stating that they are done because I don’t have time for them. At first this made me sad, but then it made me angry. I work all day from 9-7, then come home and work out for an hour, by 9pm I start my work on GamingAngels (while I eat dinner) and do a mixture of that and wedding until 1am. This is my routine every day. I don’t have any extra time to play a video game, watch a movie, or spend time with my future husband. I don’t take time out to just sit or breathe and you know what? I’m okay with that. Right now I have a perfect balancing act for me. It upsets me that someone can’t look at everything I’m doing and understand that I might be completely unavailable at least until the wedding is over. I work my ass off and I do it because I am passionate and love every aspect of what I’m doing now. I have no regrets about how hard I work and I refuse to be guiltily persuaded into feeling bad about it.
Now I’ve already spent too much time here. Have to go and check out linens! woot!
